Yesterday's Daily Dose, which I just read today, asks NSers to focus on gradual change. After a lifetime of overeating, not exercising and other bad habits, 7 days of being "good" feels like an eternity. Then when you make it through those days and get on the scale and see that you've lost 1 or 2 pounds, or even nothing at all, it seems like all that effort was wasted. Because you want to see a DRASTIC change reflected in those 3 little numbers. You want the number of pounds lost to equal what you think is the 'value' of your effort during the past week. Losing 1 pound seems hardly comparable to the HUGE-MONGOUS effort it took for me not to eat the extra 2 slices of Anthony's Coal Fired Pizza, not to grab the Snickers I wanted while standing in the WalMart line, not to stop at Taco Bell on my way home from school and go to the gym instead ... all this when all I really wanted to do is eat and then sleep.
Now my effort is to start focusing on the "little" things, what I liked to call 'What About Bob's Baby Steps'. You may recall that I have broken up with my poor-excuse for a scale. I saw a really cool one at Linens-N-Things that I may get this weekend. So, I'm making a list of the differences I've noticed in myself to keep myself encouraged until I start seeing the numbers I want to see:
- Except for being sleep-deprived, I feel GREAT. When I'm awake, I have a ton of energy.
- I walk faster.
- Everything in my closet fits or is loose.
- I can still talk after 55 minutes of cardio.
- When I sit down, I can actually see a gap between my legs.
- NO MORE DOUBLE CHIN (except in really bad, awkward drunken pictures)
- It's easier to eat healthy because I actually feel kind of sick eating too much junky food.
- I don't mind looking in the mirror so much ... I feel pretty ("oh soo pretty/ I feel pretty and witty and bright!")
- The surprised looks and silent nods of approval from friends and family when they see me, look straight at my midsection, then smile.
- I'm such a regular at the gym, I can walk in without checking in and my trainer gives me scheduling priority.
- * I lost an inch in my waist -- I think. I could've just been holding my breath (hence, the asterisk).
- Learning how to roller blade.
- Looking SEXY in a bathing suit (one that I don't have to wear with shorts).
- Buying an outfit at the Gap.
- Borrowing something to wear from my skinny friend's closet.
- Getting rid of all the clothes I can wear now because they are simply TOO BIG.
- Liking my silhouette and not being as 'deep' as I am 'wide'. (I want to be shaped like an hourglass, not a cylinder.)
- Riding a horse.
- Getting on a plane without a seatbelt extender.
- Being stared at cause I'm HOT and not cause I'm HUGE.
- Crossing my legs.
Can't wait to start checking off each of these items. Wish me luck!